I adore reading others blogs, esp. other moms and particuarly when it sounds like our lives are similar. There is a feeling of not alone-ness, even if this mom is a perfect stranger to me. When we started our blog, and I think it was two years ago, it was intended to be a journal of sorts, one we would print out and save for our kids. And secondly, it would allow those who are not near us to catch up on our happenings. But over these past few years I have never once printed anything out and well, dont ever see myself doing that cause the expense in ink would be astronomical. Yes, I can save it all to my computer. But you know. I love opening an actual journal with actual handwriting, it is just so much more real to me and up until starting this blog I kept journals for each of my girls as well as myself, but slowly I have only been using the blog and their journals lay quite bare next to my bed. I dont like this. I only have so much time in a day and it is always getting shorter so something has to give...I have made a decision that it has to be the Blog. Or atleast if not all the way shutting the blog down it will be VERY infrequently updated. Please believe me when I say I would love to write a post every day. So much happens, so many thoughts cross my mind I would love to share but I dont have time to write in my actual journal and the blog. So I am picking one cause we all know I am not going to write the same thing twice :)
As far as time getting shorter. I am entering the third trimester and for the first time hoping i stay pregnant for longer so that I have more time with just three children. We are also finishing up getting things (including turning our closet into an office space, equipped with a new outlet/phone line, shelves, etc...) ready to start school at home next week. The girls are so excited and have been dying to start. Not that we dont do somethings all the time but to officially start (I always save some new art supply or game or something exciting for when school starts). I am so glad back to school has already happened. It is abit hard not to go put a child on a bus and just have less children around but I made it through that feeling. Why am I doing this? Simply, we thought of our goals/hopes for our children and honestly couldnt figure out how public school would help them arrive to those. So I had to let go of the remaining redeeming qualities/attributes of public education and take a leap that without knowing all the answers, somehow having them learning at home would better help them to achieve goals/hopes of their lives.
Good luck to all those making their own way through life..it is so short
