Sunday, February 1, 2009

Tact

So this afternoon my husband was looking at something on the computer that I could not see (I was lounging on the bed (frequent Sunday activity). Anywho, he says, "Well 181 more days left".

So I was trying to think about what he was talking about (my first thought was it was 181 more days till the man got a paying job! (can I hear an Amen! or Its about time!!!!:))
anyway so I say, "181 more days till what?"

here was his reply, "till that thing comes out".

yeah...um, yeah, he never tries to pretend that he has tact...That should have been an elective course during Medical school...his poor patients are going to get it straight up....


on that note, or because of the third babe on the way, we have purchased a van...yeah, I am a van mom...and I have to say................I am loving it!!! I will take a pic one of these days. It is a Honda Odyssey 2006. It even came with a lifetime warranty (for free) on it Powertrain (we seem to break engines around this house, so that was important to us). Liliana is obssesed with it and has even turned it into a 'girls' vehicle. Instructing me that if the baby is a boy he will have to ride in the jeep with daddy.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

dinner idea

So today was the first day I 'made' dinner in a long time. It felt so good! I mean, I am not totally back to my old self (who can be when still pregnant) but back enough to get the beans up from the basement last night, put them to soak, start boiling them late morning and then early afternoon prepping the rest of dinner. I also put my rice to soak late morning (gets rid of the phytic acid covering the outside of all whole grains that blocks your ability to absorb vital nutrients). I mean, this is how I normally cook, where I get to think about the meal periodically throughout a 24 hr period and most of the time I start with 1 ingredient and go from there. I started with Pinto beans and then started thinking about what I could do with them. I glanced over some recipies for beans and rice (I have never offically made beans and rice, with the intention of just having that) but then decided to do my own thing, same idea.
So it was so good I had to share:

I boiled 3 cups of dry pinto beans till done but not mushy (1/3 of the cooked beans I saved out for a different dish later in the week) with half an onion.

Then I let liliana use a potato masher and mash 2c of cooked beans with the following spices added in (granulated garlic, granulated onion, season salt, celery salt, and a little sea salt-about 3/4 tsp of the first 2, and 1/2 tsp of the last 3).

In another pot i heated up some sausage (we used some spicy deer sausage given to us by a friend(yummy), about 1/2-3/4 lb)

Then I added olive oil to a clean pot and sauteed 1/2 red pepper and 2 lrg carrots, once tender liliana put in her bean mush, I added the cooked sausage and then used a spoon to add some the of cooked beans with their water (about 3 cups total)

Now everything is in one pot and i let it cook on low for most of the day. I drained the rice about 45 minutes before dinner time and started boiling that on medium, once that was done, dinner was served. Mattie thought it was so good she couldnt stand to wait for it too cool off nad kept putting her fingers into very hot food.anyway...
beans and rice and um, I made ALOT of it!!!!
good thing jacob is off tomorrow, he has been eagerly awaiting my return and has informed me he is so happy I am cooking again:)

Saturday, January 17, 2009

baby

I heard the heartbeat for the first time the other night. It was almost a surprise! Wow, so there really is a baby in there. I have to say, I never thought I would be a mom to Three kids (and 3 that I birthed, no less!)
This baby will arrive into our life right when residency starts and they will enter a home where craziness has been turned up a few notches (one never knows how much more crazy a life can get till it happens-it seems limitless!)
We are excited but I am still in some sense of denial. As I sat down on the chair tonight (like a normal, not pregnant person) I realized it was uncomfortable, something was in there, in my way from sitting how I wanted too (already!). I said to jacob, wow, somethings in there. he just looked at me like..ummmmmmmm, yes dear, its called a baby!
obviously having almost 3 children has brought my IQ down...as compensation, it has raised my ability to love

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Alright....so Jacobs been working in the ER having a good time (most of the time), although every day he comes home and says we are missing out. His way of being sarcastic that why dont we do what other people do and go to the ER instead of just calling your Fam doc and go in for an office visit (most docs have what they call, "acute care visits" slots, which is just time they have set aside in their schedule to see 'emergency' things that come up that cant wait a month till a regular visit to see-sometimes the phone monitors (that is one of my many terms for the ladies (it always seems to be a lady) who do the appointment making for the dr's) will give the patient a hard time and say you cant see the doc for like 5 years would you like that to be on monday or Wednesday, etc....but the way i bypass that is I call, they answer and I say, I would like to speak to a nurse please. I lay out my 'acute' issue with the nurse and they get me in....anyway where was i going with all of this..oh yeah
So in the ER jacob mostly sees things that could very easily have been dealt with in an office visit but will now cost so much more to be dealt with in the ER..so he likes to tell me how we need to start being ER folk...I tell him I hope to never have to use the ER, for myself or the kids...
The ER is also where you see come pretty crazy things and sad things (like one of his patients who was Matties age, the dad purposely twisted his leg bones till he heard a snap)..that was a sad day....of course he did not admit to it at first. I just hate abuse!!! no matter what kind. I am tired of people who are hurting taking their hurt out on other people!
Alright, now yesterday he had a patient who was 10. He asked me when I got home if I wanted to know how much she weighed...173 lbs! As much as jacob weighs. She was in because she was having a hard time breathing (for obvious reasons). her parents were overweight considerably and jacob was just so sad for this kid.
You know there are many days where jacob just thinks about doing Manipulation all day. When you see patients to treat them with manipulation they want to get better that is why they are there. They also usually start getting better right after the first appointment (which makes you feel great as a Doctor) and they are always happy to see you...now contrast that to most peoples appts with reg fam. docs. As a fam doc. it is his job to tell them they need to stop smoking, they need to lose weight, etc...it is his job to make sure they are not there just to get prescription drugs for their various addictions. Most people dont tell their doctors the truth to certain and usually pretty vital questions and yet expect them to not screw up on them (with constant threat of getting sued). This is not the kind of health care jacob wants to practice. He did not want to go through school, debt, and all the learning just for the chance to take care of people who dont choose to take care of themselves (seriously, he has had patients who realize during the appt that they have had another toe fall off (diabetes) and could care less).
Jacob and I talked alot the other night about how our bodies are sacred like the Temple. They house our spirits and there is a connection. You can only be so sick and still be able to grow spiritually. Maybe I seem extreme to many but I really feel like we , the members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, should be some of the healthiest people there are. We have the Word of Wisdom, it not only tells us what things to stay away from (the ones we know, tobacco, alcohol, tea, and the ones we like to not know, Meat (we should be consuming so little (unless of course we find ourselves in a state of famine or coldness all the year long) that we dont consider it ever to be the main part of a meal or in general a diet. As a side note we on average consume over 200 lbs/person a year of meat...
The Word of Wisdom, given in the 1800's, also gave warning of something we can see now...how many will conspire against us (and our health) inorder to make a profit. It also reminds us of many good things to consume for our bodies. I just love the words at the end of the Word of Wisdom, the blessings. It reminds me of the Temple. It reminds me that we were never meant to be so sick here.
But then we also have the Law of the Fast. I used to think that this law was just about providing for others through a sacrifice of our own. Yes, that is an important part of it. But on my mission, another very important part was taught to me by participating in fasting so many times for others. Through the act of fasting (with a spiritual purpose) we learn that we (our spirits) our stronger than our bodies. Once I understood that simple truth fasting no longer cause hunger in me at all, regardless of being around food or not while fasting. I learned that my spirit, and its honest desire to fast for a purpose, was stronger than any body desire. Knowing this can set us free of so many traps.
I believe that we are supposed to be at harmony with our bodies. Yet, as members we have a way to gain spiritual strength that extends to knowing that I dont have to give in to a certain craving for a drug, or food, etc..that will not serve either my body or spirit. I am so grateful for the restoration of the church for so many many reasons but the desire to share with others what I know has only grown stronger because I want others to know about the Word of Wisdom and the Fasting Law as well.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Short Order Chef

Cooking breakfast in our house can be a bit chaotic, especially with all of the diet requirements.  Mattie can't have gluten, which rules out a lot of wheat products, and won't eat eggs, so we settle for buckwheat pancakes (buckwheat is a gluten free flour).  Heather, being pregnant, doesn't do well with high carb meals and often settles for a poached egg with some sort of fried potato and toast.  Liliana will eat anything.  Susan, Heather's mother, will occasionally have a poached or scrambled egg, but, more often than not, goes for cereal.  So, with 3-4 different things going on, I've burned my fair share of toast and have cooked eggs far past the delicate balance of the perfect yoke.  Yes, Heather and Liliana are quite particular in how they like their yokes to be: done, but still a little runny.  More than once, I've caused a flood of tears because the yoke was too well done and not at all runny.

This morning wasn't any different - Buckwheat pancakes for Mattie, a poached egg with fried potatoes for Heather, and a cateye (a.k.a. egg-in-a-hole, egg-in-a-frame, ducks-in-a-pond, etc.) with fried potatoes for Liliana.  For those of you not familiar with this delicious breakfast, you take a piece of bread, cut a square out of the middle, butter the edges, put it on a fry pan, then cook an egg in the middle.  It's quite yummy.  As I put the cat-eye in front of Liliana, she cut it in half, picked up a half, and started eating.  As the yoke oozed out onto the plate, she looked at me and said, "Perfect!  Good job, Daddy!"  There's nothing like getting approval from your daughter that the meal is acceptable!

Saturday, January 10, 2009

I am so glad when...

Well Jacob has come home (kind of). He is at work right now. He flew in this afternoon. the kids and I picked him up. Liliana ran out of the car and jumped up into his arms. And at the sound of his voice Mattie woke up from her nap in the car to greet him. We went to lunch and then he was off to work again.
He missed the girls and they missed him so much.
the night he left I was reading evening books with liliana and I asked her if she missed daddy. I then told her that I missed him too. She rubbed my hair and said, "oh, mom, do you miss your prince?"...I said, "yes, I do". She said, "It's alright mom, he will be back in a few days".
I then told her that I was sorry that I was always tired and sick and that hopefully pretty soon I would start to feel better and we could do more things. She then rubbed my belly and said, "Its alright mommy, I will take care of your babies for you" (Liliana is convinced we are having twins).
She is very sweet, then to top it off, She said that nights prayer and in it prayed that daddy wouldnt wreck our jeep (jacobs car is dead, she assumes he broke it) and then said "Heavenly Father, Thank you for sending Jesus to us, I love him so much".
How can I keep my girls just the age they are???

Monday, January 5, 2009

back to the grind

I keep looking at the clock...thinking about bedtime, that is never a good sign.
Today is jacobs first day back to work and we didnt really ease back into it. I mean, he is working a 12 today, a 14 tomorrow, and then another 12. Then he will just be gone for three days out of state, so vacation is definitely over!
The hardest part is being sick and tired. I have already told jacob and I might as well tell all of you. It should just be a law or something, when people are pregnant they should get a person whose only job is too take care of the pregnant person (either through holding a bowl when throwing up, feeding them yummy type meals that said sick person would love to eat but never have the energy to make, etc....). I did really well these past two weeks, now I am realizing it is all because jacob cooked all my meals and took care of the kids, it is easy to do well like that.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhughhhhhhhhhh hate is a strong word, but i really dont like this phase of pregnancy, sometimes i feel like someone should just take me out to the woods and put me out of my misery. they wouldnt even need to kill me, just leave me far enough out and I would never have enough energy to walk out....
anyway..liliana asked me today why daddy needed to be at work so long and I said that daddy decided to be a doctor so he was going to work alot. She again asked why doctors need to work so much. I told her there were alot of sick people out there who needed help (like the folks who do the scheduling for sure!). She then looked at the calender and wanted to know what day her daddy was going to be home, or more precisely, "mommy, how many days till daddy comes home from work"? What a sad state of affairs when my 3-yr old understands that when daddy goes to work she doesnt see him for days or a week on end.