a balance act

So my hormones are trying to 'balance' themselves (i.e., just about anything can make me cry right now....) and now that the baby is born it is almost like I can process many of the changes of life that have just been happening to our family. Like moving to a new home (which I am trying to keep clean, partly for sanity and partly because it helps me to 'like' the home better), leaving behind or saying goodbye to wonderful and much needed friends, jacobs new job (and the hours that come along with it-as well as the stress that sometimes comes home from work), our finances are really different and I am trying to get used to a new budget, having to find new friends for my girls (and myself) and I don't know how many times I have gotten lost while driving around here....I think we came up here under such stress of trying to find a home quickly and then all my energy went into unpacking before the baby came that now that she is here I can deal with the changes and well, it is abit hard sometimes....

I am so thankful that Jane sleeps. I would be a walking zombie mess if she didn't. But we are blessed to finally have a baby that knows when it is night time and just sleeps, gently waking up just to eat and then goes back to bed till morning...what a blessing. We have also been fortunate to have Zarah here. This has meant naps for me and major help with the older girls. I will miss her help and am not sure if I am ready to fly solo again.

I realize now that Jane will grow up so quickly, so I am trying to treasure her littleness and all her squeaky noises. Liliana called mattie, mattiemouse (when an infant), and now calls Jane, janekitty because she thinks it is funny how little babies squeak.

Having three is alot more work then having two (obviously) but I am hopeful that at somepoint it will just be 'normal' to us. I am also hoping that when it starts to feel normal we wont do something silly and make it four kids....

Jacob has 2 more weeks of being home for bedtime routine, then I am on my own all day long as he wont be home till after bedtime 6 days week, so hopefully my hormones will be 'balanced' by then and I can balance everyone better on my own....